Ryan's Story: update through pictures.....VACATION!!!

Heart Motherby: Stephanie HustedOne day my world came crashing down
I'll never be the same. They told me that my child was sick.
I thought "am I to blame?"
I don't think I can handle this
I'm really not that strong.
It seemed my heart was breaking,
I've loved her for so long.

I will not give up on this child
I will listen to your advice.
I will give my child any chance
no matter what the price.
I will learn all that I need to help my child thrive
I'll even use that feeding tube
my child MUST survive.

Will she need a lot of therapy?
Will she gain the needed weight?
Please, GOD, help me do this
I will accept our fate.

When the monitors beep at night
it serves as my reminder
How many parents would love that sound
tomorrow I will be kinder.
As another angel earns his wings
I run to my childs bed
I watch her sleep for quite a while
I bend down and kiss her head.
I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken
I look to you, wondering why?
Oh Lord I just cant know your ways,
no matter how I try.

And yet I trust you to hold her life
and guide us through each day
My mind says savor each moment she's here
by my heart begs "please let her stay!!"

From pacing the surgical waiting room
to sitting by her bed. From wishing for
a good night's sleep, to learning every med.
From wondering "will she be alright?" to
watching her reach out her hands. With
every smile my heart just melts, despite life's
harsh demands.

For all who see that faded line, I look to
them and smile. You see, my child is loved so much,
I would face ANY trial. That scar I trace with my finger
is the door to her beautiful heart
God must have known how much I'd love her
just as he loved her from the start.

A heart mom is always a heart mom
now wise beyond her years. For those who have
angels in heaven, our hearts share in all of your tears.

Every day I will try and remember, that I was
chosen for her and no other. I will always
embrace that beautiful day, when I became a
heart mother.